Our First Apartment

Faith & Spirituality, Random Musings

So we signed a lease for our very first apartment this week. What is generally a monumental step of independence for young adults and met with much rejoicing, well, sucked. Not going to lie, there were tears. It was just so beige. So impersonal. So not how it was supposed to be. There’s carpet.

But when you sell your house (in FIVE DAYS!), because you feel God is leading you on an adventure of His making, sometimes there is a middle. A layover of sorts. And in every middle, you can be assured there is a reason. Coincidentally, before the ink on the lease (or my tears) even dried, I read THIS. And oh, did I just get it. I didn’t necessarily like it, but I got it.

The writer shares Isaiah 45:2: “I myself will go before you, and I will level the mountains. I will shatter bronze doors; I will cut through iron bars,” before going on to say, “When I am not patient I do not trust God, and I end up running into mountains that God has not prepared me for yet.

Just because there is waiting doesn’t mean it’s not part of God’s plan. We’re not waiting on a job or a house or anything other than God. We are waiting on God Himself to make clear our path. Kind of a game changer, right?

Romans 8:26-28 {MSG} states: Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

Even when I feel tired of waiting, and ready to give up, God’s faithfulness endures. Thus my response must be:

  1. Pride I’m not above living anywhere God calls me. “So let’s go outside, where Jesus is, where the action is—not trying to be privileged insiders, but taking our share in the abuse of Jesus. This “insider world” is not our home. We have our eyes peeled for the City about to come.” {Hebrews 13:13-14, MSG} Where I live this side of heaven matters not.
  2. Praise – For God is good, no matter my earthly circumstances, and deserving of my worship. The quick sale of our home, the way He goes before us, leveling mountains. All things will be worked out for our good and His glory.
  3. Practice – It’s all good and well to say I have faith until I actually have to step out. Selling our home without seeing what’s next was *ahem* scary, but faith requires action and trust requires continuing to move forward. My faith is lived out when I’m open to what He’s called me to. As a Christ-follower, all of our life is to be lived out according to His leading. There is Kingdom work to be done no matter where we are, both situationally and physically.
  4. Presence & Preparation – In this season of waiting it would be so easy to give in to fear and anxiety, but God has given me such a gift in the layover. The work of preparing the house to sell is over, apartment living has its conveniences. I need to take advantage of this resting place and abide in God’s holy presence so I am ready for what comes next.

So, in this waiting, in this in-between:

“Let us hold strong to the confession of our hope, never wavering, since the One who promised it to us is faithful.” {Hebrews 10:23, VOICE}

And I will not doubt that God will deliver on all He promised, in His perfect timing, for our good and His glory.

3 thoughts on “Our First Apartment

  1. It is good. Your eyes are open, looking for His way. Your ears are open listening for His voice. What is the most difficult, and completely out of my comfort zone, is having feet that run swiftly to do what He bids.

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